Hey, something is telling me to recommend you the book "conversations with god". It was written by a guy that was pretty lost in his life, and was angry at god, and basically wanted god to answer his questions and apparently, god did answer. I think the bible says "all scripture is inspired by God" and I for one, could really feel there is something different about this book. Even if it's a larp and the guy invented it, the way he can explain some things that seem not understandable, like for example if god exists why is it still so much suffering in the world ? It's a very very interesting read, and like I said something is telling me to make you aware of it :p