Your mental illness is far worse then I assumed. Since when are you having these psychotic episodes? Are they the reason why you believe in the QAnon-bullshit or is the QAnon-bullshit the reason for your psychosis? Did your homosexuality make you feel worthless and is it the reason why you felt the need to join a group of deranged morons to punish yourself? Did you want to feel superior in the fellowship of idiots to compensate for your inferiority complex because of your suppressed sexuality? You are quite an interesting specimen to study!