Ok so I've been around since first post and been on most boards through out Qs journey. I understand ur reason all I'm saying is take our words the same as the left's. It's just how we put together the reality were apart of. I've let the group take me down many rabbit holes that made so much sense and i let it become a truth without me playing with it in my mind to see how I feel. Do everything possible to convince ur feelings that this post is wrong and seek to prove it wrong. To be honest nobody here fully understand Q or is 100% positive it's real or not. This allows us to keep growing and being humbled. I suggest u start with just the Q post and read those start to finish. Then search Q proofs and look at those. Then last look up past theories and learn from our past faults. I've fallen down ready to give up many times and always am guided back and humbled. I've learned to love when spirit humbles me it's like a new level notification if u try to learn and grow