Definitely not throwing in the towel given the present circumstances, but I wanted to take a moment to make a semi low quality post to address what my 'awakening' experience has been in the little over a month I've been exposed to the realities of Q and more importantly the world.
I first started browsing this forum at the end of December after nothing visible happened with the executive order. After watching the Q proofs video my mind was blown and I started taking what I had heard about the pedophile rings much more seriously. I considered myself red-pilled before to the point where nothing could surprise me, but learning the realities of the central bankers, the secret societies, and all these other invisible enemies all at the same time took me aback for weeks (quite literally speechless when discussing politics). I have yet to fully comprehend why, but the whole ordeal got me to pray again and, after several more days of contemplation, brought things into focus for me. I now have a newfound appreciation for my family and am much more driven to work despite the dire state of things.
It's odd for me to put this to words because of how contradictory these feelings are to how otherwise messed up things are, but perhaps I'll be able to explain it better in the future. I have faith in God and our president and I know that the best is yet to come.
Glad to hear the positivity it has given you. I went and am going through the same thing. Very conspiracy minded but wasn't prepared for this one so it shook me. The pain of children is heart wrenching. It brought me back, I am at peace as well now and praying for justice. I pray for the good citizens and anything that resolves around goodness.
I think you've done a good job of how you feel and thanks for expressing yourself. It is hard to explain because it's unique for everyone. What I find funny is that this system slowly got me to turn away from my faith but they messed up so bad, I came back to it. Q was the clue but in a sense, their denial and evil deeds are what made me realize what is real and who I am with confidence. No second guessing anymore.
Bless you and yours and all.