Wow I'm sorry although I didmt have to put my dog down I had to give her away to pound not that long ago. We had to move and couldn't take her and it was so tough. Plus she was a pit that dodnt like anyone outside me and my wife so the thought that she couldn't find a home was devastating to me. I broke down in tears before we left and just held her tight. I cant speak for anything other than my heart but for meni found strength in bringing up and focusing on only joy memories. Those will always be there. Animals r tough because we actually have to care for them or they wont survive. Children atleast have society as a whole looking out but animals there our own responsibility and so we make them one with our soul. I use to just stare at my dog calypso (love u girl) and just be still in peace with her. Be in those joy moments. Ur heart will tell u what's right choice to make but don't let moments u Have now be controlled by worry of future choices..find joy in present the future will have it's own worries and challenges