I'm so glad I could encourage you. I was in the same boat, my friend. I am embarrassed to say I've been pretty apathetic in my relationship with God. I lost my parents in 2017 in a truly horrific and unexpected way. My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 10 years, and that is really discouraging. These trials tested my faith and honestly created some anger and sadness towards God. I just started feeling like my prayers didn't matter.

This is exactly how Satan wanted me to feel.

Finally waking up to the true evil in this world has woken up and reignited my desire to have a deep relationship with God. I realize how much I and the world truly need Him. It was like seeing the depths of evil that exist really showed how much we need God.

My spiritual gift is exhortation, but it's really difficult to encourage others when feeling so discouraged. It's the #1 way Satan attacks me. If I feel discouraged, I can't use the spiritual gifts that God has given me. It's like I've woken up to what Satan has been doing and I see how I've been letting him win. Now I know what to fight against and where I need God to help me. God has been encouraging me through this, and it feels so good to be able to encourage and love on other people again. We are all going through this uncertain time, together. WWG1WGA :)

I just want you to know that God loves you and I love you as my sister in Christ. Never hesitate to message me if you ever want to talk or pray or anything. <3