I understand your pain. and for me, it's when I get beat up emotionally by my family. I see progress everywhere but when I tell them about it they tell me I'm crazy and until they see actual arrests and convictions, or a change in government that NOTHING is happening. and then I feel so discouraged and tired and sick of waiting... Now that I type it out, I see I've been bathed in their negative thoughts, thoughts that are not me. It's hard to see my loved ones as my enemy, but in this instance, they are.