I have been awake for 10 years now but it feels like my mental health from it is at it's worst right now. Like the title says I am having a hard time interacting with a lot of people in my day to day life especially being in a deep blue state (WA). Between the covid crap and knowing the truth about pedophilia I live in a completely different reality and world then the average person.
I don't wear my mask at big box stores most of the time. I do with my mom because she doesn't want to be harassed so I respect that. If it's just my Dad and I we go maskless together.
My aunt came to visit me with her new puppy the other day and was wearing two fucking masks. My aunt is a typical boomer normie. Since I wouldn't wear a mask she kept 6 feet away from me the entire time. She was telling me about this new movie with Tom Hanks in it and the entire time I was just thinking "Tom Hanks is a pedophile". Later she was talking about how she can't wait for my brother and I to get the vaccine, with all my will power I stopped myself from laughing.
Most women in my generation especially in the Seattle area are brain dead. A couple of months ago I was on a date with a woman who is a latina and she was saying how disappointed she was that so many latino's voted for Trump. I asked if she thought they were "racist" cause she claimed that she thinks Trump voters are racist. She says yes because they are white washed. I called the waiter over, paid my tab, told her I don't date racist pieces of shit like her and left.
Dating in general as a Trump voter in the Seattle area is hard. Every girl I have tried to date ends up being a NPC libtard. Then when they find out I am a Trump voter it's like they are disgusted with themselves for fucking a Trump voter. Yet we're the only ones they fuck anyways.
My coworkers are all brain dead too. I am in the beer industry which is really liberal for some reason. I work at a big brewery in the state so being outnumbered 20 to 1 I just don't talk about anything political and have to "act" normal. I listen to them talk shit about Trump all the time. I 100% believe that if I came out as a Trump voter they would find some BS reason to fire me.
I used to be a huge football fan. Haven't watched a game this year. If it weren't for the fact my coworkers talk about it I wouldn't even know that the Chiefs and Buccaneers were in the Super Bowl.
My friend group has shrunk to only the 3 friends that voted for Trump. Our high school friend group has been torn apart over the political scene. I also don't talk to half of my family anymore cause I can't deal with their woke bullshit.
I don't go on social media at all really anymore. I am tired of the media gaslighting and watching the sheep's stupid social media posts.
My tolerance for normies and NPC's is at a zero. I actually hate them more then the Cabal. Without their stupidity, narcissism and false sense of moral superiority the world wouldn't have to deal with the Cabal. I wish the Q team would just rip the band aid off. I don't care if normies and NPC's die from shock from the truth. They enabled this shit so fuck them. I understand everything is at stake here but god damn this burden is hard.
My drinking and pot smoking has gone up a lot with these fucking covid lockdowns and waiting for the plan to unfold. I have held the line for so long and am the most hardcore Trump supporter I know. Speaking of Covid lockdowns Jay Inslee let only the 3 largest counties in the state (all blue) open up. Purely political. He hates Red Eastern Washington and I doubt he'll let them open up anytime soon. I haven't gone to the gym or jiu jitsu/boxing in a year now and I miss it so much.
I am just fed up frens. Just fed up. I question my sanity often. Like I was talking to my brother on the phone and was asking him how the fuck do we see this for what it is and the normies/NPC's are complete sheep. How do we on this site see the truth and others can't? To me it seems to fucking obvious once you put some of the pieces together.
Thanks for reading this post. I needed to rant a bit sorry if I came off like a whiny bitch.
I'll continue to hold the line cause until we win I am not comfortable.
Huh, welcome to my life in many ways.
I'm NOT a psychologist so take this for what it is, just advice from someone in a similar situation . . .
Firstly, IT kind of sounds like you still need external validation. You still need the approval of everyone around you for your attitudes and knowledge and beliefs.
Second, Its hard to be a loner/ People are social animals mostly. You have to decide if you can still fit into this "Matrix" that you are in OR you can understand that how you are is perfectly fine. In fact you are AWAKE. You exercise critical thinking. You are independent and as such you will be alone a lot.
In a manner of speaking you have to cut off all these people. You have to let go of your need for them. You have to understand that as the situation stands now you are not the same -- it's you versus them. You're not compatible. You CAN interact with them, work with them, and patronize them with kindness and courtesy BUT just know that you know more than them. It sounds arrogant but the society as it's constructed is constructed for zombies. OR you can just forget everything and try to be a zombie again. But you cant un-ring a bell.
One thing that I find helps me is that all of my interactions with my co-workers, who are all leftards, is that I understand that we're not friends. We're just associates. I wouldn't even attempt to "wake them" and I try to avoid political discussions at all costs. In fact, when someone brings up politics i literally say, "I'm out."
All of this is hard. You watch TV and you know the truth -- tell-a-vision is a brainwashing device. The Fake Stream mediots are liars and propagandists. You know the truth but people don't want to listen. For the sake of your sanity you have to let this old "life" go in the sense that it is not real and deal with it completely on your terms whether others like it or not.
Bottom line for me-- I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks or says about me. And IF they're not awake to reality I sure as Hell don't give a shit what they think or have to say. I'm my own man and know one tells me anything unless I verify myself.
Understand?
Great post! TY
Yeah, it's real hard to swallow what people you generally like -- co-workers & friends -- say when they try to formulate arguments that have no veracity, are NOT backed by facts (regurgiated propaganda). Then when you make a counter argument with facts and research they basically just blow you off.
There's a willful denial of the truth and the there's also laziness. I've found it to be a combination of both in most cases. People have such short attention spans they don't want to focus on "research" or reading or investigating.
More excellent points.
Fortunately for me most of my family is pro-Trump. I have a couple members that are hardcore leftards. We coddle them and avoid talking politics. Hope they come around eventually once this is all finally exposed.
But friends and co-workers all leftards or refuse to wake up in one way or another.
Same as me, but I can also choose when to be emotionally detached. Done it so long that I can basically "turn off" my emotions in order to prevent myself from getting angry or depressed.
Meditation also helped with it. As in learning to relax and ease the mind.
Read/listen some instructions, play soothing sounds or music, sit or lie down comfortably and empty mind from thoughts and worries, focus on yourself - mind and body. After you practise it for while, can do it eg. in the bus/train or anywhere when you're just waiting.
I like your attitude about it but I think it's better more wake up so then there I care.