I have been awake for 10 years now but it feels like my mental health from it is at it's worst right now. Like the title says I am having a hard time interacting with a lot of people in my day to day life especially being in a deep blue state (WA). Between the covid crap and knowing the truth about pedophilia I live in a completely different reality and world then the average person.
I don't wear my mask at big box stores most of the time. I do with my mom because she doesn't want to be harassed so I respect that. If it's just my Dad and I we go maskless together.
My aunt came to visit me with her new puppy the other day and was wearing two fucking masks. My aunt is a typical boomer normie. Since I wouldn't wear a mask she kept 6 feet away from me the entire time. She was telling me about this new movie with Tom Hanks in it and the entire time I was just thinking "Tom Hanks is a pedophile". Later she was talking about how she can't wait for my brother and I to get the vaccine, with all my will power I stopped myself from laughing.
Most women in my generation especially in the Seattle area are brain dead. A couple of months ago I was on a date with a woman who is a latina and she was saying how disappointed she was that so many latino's voted for Trump. I asked if she thought they were "racist" cause she claimed that she thinks Trump voters are racist. She says yes because they are white washed. I called the waiter over, paid my tab, told her I don't date racist pieces of shit like her and left.
Dating in general as a Trump voter in the Seattle area is hard. Every girl I have tried to date ends up being a NPC libtard. Then when they find out I am a Trump voter it's like they are disgusted with themselves for fucking a Trump voter. Yet we're the only ones they fuck anyways.
My coworkers are all brain dead too. I am in the beer industry which is really liberal for some reason. I work at a big brewery in the state so being outnumbered 20 to 1 I just don't talk about anything political and have to "act" normal. I listen to them talk shit about Trump all the time. I 100% believe that if I came out as a Trump voter they would find some BS reason to fire me.
I used to be a huge football fan. Haven't watched a game this year. If it weren't for the fact my coworkers talk about it I wouldn't even know that the Chiefs and Buccaneers were in the Super Bowl.
My friend group has shrunk to only the 3 friends that voted for Trump. Our high school friend group has been torn apart over the political scene. I also don't talk to half of my family anymore cause I can't deal with their woke bullshit.
I don't go on social media at all really anymore. I am tired of the media gaslighting and watching the sheep's stupid social media posts.
My tolerance for normies and NPC's is at a zero. I actually hate them more then the Cabal. Without their stupidity, narcissism and false sense of moral superiority the world wouldn't have to deal with the Cabal. I wish the Q team would just rip the band aid off. I don't care if normies and NPC's die from shock from the truth. They enabled this shit so fuck them. I understand everything is at stake here but god damn this burden is hard.
My drinking and pot smoking has gone up a lot with these fucking covid lockdowns and waiting for the plan to unfold. I have held the line for so long and am the most hardcore Trump supporter I know. Speaking of Covid lockdowns Jay Inslee let only the 3 largest counties in the state (all blue) open up. Purely political. He hates Red Eastern Washington and I doubt he'll let them open up anytime soon. I haven't gone to the gym or jiu jitsu/boxing in a year now and I miss it so much.
I am just fed up frens. Just fed up. I question my sanity often. Like I was talking to my brother on the phone and was asking him how the fuck do we see this for what it is and the normies/NPC's are complete sheep. How do we on this site see the truth and others can't? To me it seems to fucking obvious once you put some of the pieces together.
Thanks for reading this post. I needed to rant a bit sorry if I came off like a whiny bitch.
I'll continue to hold the line cause until we win I am not comfortable.
careful - too much info - someone at work who knows you might recognize you from that lot.....
you have to get used to your own company - take long walks - def. lay off the booze and the high THC weed - listen to some good music - meditate - and learn to switch into a kinda conscious state - you know that nice frame of mind when you watch a sunset - kind of like a wide eyed baby - you feed your consciousness and soul like that.... it's very liberating..... then you can detach from the thoughts and emotions and kinda float through life - it's a gymnasium to see how you can observe the negative states - none of it is really you.... it's all just a test....
happy to chat on the phone / skype if you like.... made lots of friends around the world online....
we should make a conference line and chew the fat with a few people.... why not......
work and family is tough - yes - but we can't live in PST warrior mode all the time :-)
Much like OP I was in a rut, but I have found giving up the vices to be what really helps move you forward, and trying to fill life with meaningful moments.
The advantage I have is that my wife is based, her family is quite redpilled, and I have a solid support network that I have been connecting together around me of conservative minded free thinkers.
Best advice I can give to anyone is to just let go of anything that isn't working, relationships, jobs, habits. Smile, as God is about to bless you in return. And be yourself! Tell your coworkers that trump is great, that you support him, that covid masks won't stop virus transmission (just go outside and breathe in the cold) and you will be shocked at the respect people show you. They will either engage in sensible dialogue OR they will leave you alone and never bring up trump around you. Normies are first and foremost terrified of conflict!
Also, I never wear masks at big box stores (I throw one on at certain quick takeout restaurants because I'm hungry and I don't want tampering) and nobody ever says anything. But I'm sure everyone here is in a similar boat with that.
Every single store in Maryland has mandatory mask signs. I’ve thought about rebelling, but they will arrest your ass here..
I have a baby on the way in a couple months and I can’t get locked up over this stupidity.. but I HATE the mask.
Very conflicting.
"I am medically exempt"