Not suicidal let me clarify that up front. But im so demoralized on the verge of denying everything i know in my heart to be true. I feel like we have been abandoned and forgotten, and that everything we are pushing for has been shot down... I just want the strength to ignore these feelings and push though to a later date to where i can look back and not feel ashamed for believing trump won the election was stolen and Biden is a china agent.