I just can't do it anymore. I go to bible study and we talk about the little evils that people struggle with every day. You would think, I would benefit from a women's bible study about "The Armor of God". But it very hard to care about the study and about all the little struggles we normies deal with when so much true evil is in the world. I also LOATH zoom. I want to do things in person and I just can't seem to get into a distance bible study.
I want to talk about satanists murdering babies. I want to talk about how Covid is a lie instead of pretending to be concerned about people catching a cold. And yes God forgive me I have lost my empathy for them. She asked me why I didn't continue and what I focusing my time on. And I told her about murdering babies and drinking their blood. I told her about Satanist in powerful positions.
She insisted that she had looked into that decades ago and knew all about it and that she could not deal with it so decided to do focus on the people around her and her life and to not deal with the stresses of these things. I get that. I understand that. And I can't do that right now. I just hung up on her. All she did was convince me I should not go and she was trying to do just the opposite.
The fact is that she is RIGHT! There is nothing we can do. It is all in Gods hands so I really should be going to that study and serving my neighbors. I just can't right now.
I too struggle with Bible studies, but mostly because many times they feel forced and inorganic. I just keep praying I'll eventually find a really good one.
I COMPLETELY understand your frustration about not talking about the true evil in this world. However, it IS still good to focus on our own sins and how we can live our lives better for Jesus. Those two things don't have to be mutually exclusive. In my own prayer time, I try to balance the two. I pray for God to help me in my own personal life with struggles I'm having, but I'm also praying for our nation and for God to grant us justice.
What we CAN do about this is what you're doing. Sharing information online and with people we know and praying. Satan wants us to feel helpless and isolated. But nothing is impossible with God! I feel like the evil in this world has really been getting to Christians on a spiritual level that many are not even aware of. I see defeat and apathy in many people. Me included up until a few weeks ago.
I believe we have been deceived about the power of God. No WE may not be able to do much about this evil, but GOD can. Faith as small as a mustard seed can move mountains. We just have to remain faithful and keep petitioning God to go before us and grant us victory.
I'm sorry, I feel like I'm rambling. I just want to give you some encouragement <3