I couldn’t have expressed this feeling of angst any better thank you, my friend. I believe we are feeling the same way in various degrees. But I look at it like this; necessity breeds opportunity. When one door closes, another one opens. And often blank canvases are what we need to paint a new beautiful future rather than trying to cover the past like a bad tattoo. We’re in this together. We all feel your pain and soon, we will all feel the same glory (I hope and pray, anyway).