I am also 53 and wanted to the same - country bound.

My wife wants our daughter to finish University first but she doesn't even live with us.

Because God gave me this purpose, when I became whistleblower and lost income.

My parents both died at 49 some years apart and I also thought my time is done here.

But the good news is that our house is now worth 400000 more, and instead of 2 farms, I can now afford 3. All in one year.

I have seen signs and miracles happen ed to me. This is my mission and ministry.

You also could help others, don't focus on your misery. Tell your husband to reach out to me.

I will explain to him what is important.

I was an atheist 2 years ago and wanted to kill myself.

Tell me if you need more, but do not be afraid.

Just say Our Father prayer. And believe.

I can talk without mentioning God, but why not tell the truth instead?

God loves you and gave his son to save you.

I love you. I love your husband. He is lost, but don't underestimate the grace of Holy Spirit.

All will be well have faith.