How long have you all been awake? It's been about 8-9 months for me since i've found out how fucked up and depraved the world truly is. I couldn't imagine what it must have been like for people who have known all this stuff since 9/11. How have you dealt with it? How has it effected your personal lives? Have there been any benefits? and lastly, how the flying fuck have you not offed yourselves? Because Christ almighty this has been a heavy burden to deal with alone. All my friends and family think i'm going nuts, it's forcing me to become a bit of a recluse, and it sucks complete ass.
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I've been awake since 1987. I attended a seminar where the speaker presented biblical prophecy pointing to the coming One World government, famines, quakes and pestilence, a cashless society, the mark of the beast and the coming persecution for Believers, etc.
I was very young and being " awake" had a PROFOUND effect on my ensuing life decisions. I made some choices that my friends and family considered to be pretty radical based on what I learned that fateful day. I decided to leave the city and buy some acreage out in the country. I learned how to garden, raise and slaughter chickens, milk goats and cook from scratch. When It came time to have babies I decided to give birth at home and NOT vaccinate my children. I also chose to home school my kids so they would not get indoctrinated. Additionally, I vowed not to get into debt. I started my own business so that I could work from home. My marriage ended due to my ex-husband's horrific addiction to pornography. As such, my journey, especially as a single mother, has not been easy and was occasionally fraught with periods of being very poor because I refused to put my kids in school and get a "real" job. Unfortunately self-employment can be feast or famine income-wise. But we got through it.
I definitely lost family and friends along the way, my mother and step-father are the only members of my family who I still have a relationship with. There are some family members that I took the initiative to delete out of my life, there are others who deleted me. It's sad, but true. I guess the way I see it is that I'd rather have a few really meaningful connections as opposed to lots of superficial "friends". My now grown children are healthy, strong and completely grounded, we are very close. It's hard to put a price on that, so yes I view that as HUGE benefits. Plus I'm debt free and semi-retired at age 54.
Watching the destruction unfold all around us is depressing, but for me it's absolutely expected. One of the most frustrating events was 9/11. It was SO OBVIOUS to me that it was an inside job, but I couldn't share my views with anyone. Truly soul crushing depression and a deeply jaded/negative outlook on life was unavoidable. I've since found a variety of ways to mitigate the stressors. Offing myself was not an option cuz I had young kids. I am a bit of loner and it can suck at times, but I eventually remarried at the end of 2015. Try to imagine the burden of me having to explain my conspiratorial views to the men I dated! It was pretty damn funny and most dudes ran for the hills, lol.