I'm not really psychologically prepared to process it if this science experiment kills my brother. Tbh I'm pretty sure I would lose my mind. It's different for people who just think "oh a freak tragedy for the greater good" but for those of us awake it's basically watching gullible people get murdered. It hits way different and when it's someone you love it's enough to make you snap. It's some kind of wild inner conflict wanting some crescendo to clown world so it can be over with and simultaneously wanting to be wrong and just crazy so loved ones turn out okay.