When I look around I see many people who although might be good, humble and smart are still asleep. I see good christian people who are.much better people than myself who are asleep.
I wonder why I think the way I do and question the way I do. O6t seems it would be easier and more blissful to be asleep but my mind cant help itself. Why is that?
I think it's the same for all of us. Something inherent in oiur thinking refuses to accept illogical excuses for this illogical reality. It's hard to explain. Sometimes infeel.likeninwas chosen for this. This was my purpose perhaps.
I have always had a different way of thinking from other people. I did well in school but put very little effort into it. I remember I used to get questions “wrong” on tests only to go back to the teacher and explain that there are more than one way to interpret the question asked and I was answering what was asked as I interpreted the question. Over and over again it would completely surprise them that someone would interpret the question that way but I was completely right, their question was not specific and required me to make a bunch of assumptions about what their question meant. I woke up more than four years ago when I saw a meme of the pope’s audience hall, (giant snake head). I was shocked and the implications were immediately clear to me. I am constantly shocked that when I show other people, they dismiss it as if I am crazy for pointing it out, instead of it being crazy that it exists in the first place.