When I look around I see many people who although might be good, humble and smart are still asleep. I see good christian people who are.much better people than myself who are asleep.
I wonder why I think the way I do and question the way I do. O6t seems it would be easier and more blissful to be asleep but my mind cant help itself. Why is that?
I think it's the same for all of us. Something inherent in oiur thinking refuses to accept illogical excuses for this illogical reality. It's hard to explain. Sometimes infeel.likeninwas chosen for this. This was my purpose perhaps.
I have wondered myself. I feel I have always been stubborn but obedient. I wanted to be rebellious a little and I hated anyone trying to control me. I hated being told what to do by anyone who I didn't respect and trust. Bully teachers for instance. I've always been a good girl who loves Jesus and respected elders. I've had a strong moral compass and the desire to stand up for truth and right. It's always been important to me that people have the freedom to make their own choices. This is why it was easier for me to see someone trying to control and take power from us.