You are not alone. I know Satan works hard on our thoughts and emotions..... Doubt, fear, insecurity, worry, anger, anxiety...etc. I feel I'm on a rollercoaster most of the time and sometimes I wish I was still standing in line. It's exciting to see people on their own wake up, but devistating and beyond frustrating when others still refuse to see truth. Right now, in this moment, I feel ok but who knows about tomorrow! I find in those moments If I pray even when I don't want to, it helps bring peace. We know who wins. All will be well. Trust in God and his son. Jesus knows how you feel and he loves you. This is temporary and we all need each other to lift and be kind. You got this!