Pretty sure your guy would not keep his job if he had rebelled against the med community etc. His life work, what he knows, and what loves. Probably what he plans to do for a very long time. And he was not in his heart motivated to take a stand against his work associates about the vacc issue. You are two different people. If you are depressed and anxious and resentful because your feelings did not override all of those factors in his life, I personally feel you should do yourself, and him, a favor and go live your own life and let him live his. Resentments generally don't go away. They just fester. I am not at all minimizing your vacc concerns, I share them. They are intense. I do know what this issue stirs up -- passionate aversions and actual rage! Just try to think in terms of what your feelings towards him truly are, now. If there is handwriting on the wall, don't ignore it. Bless you, fren