Because you're spiraling; and because this thread is dead. Why did you even delete your posts? You're not capable of reasonably or coherently discussing esoterica because you lack the basic faculties required to reconcile information for practical purposes. You're blinded by paranoia and fear to the point that you can only communicate in spastic torrents. Stop worrying about me, find some faith in God, and redeem yourself through the Spirit of Christ.
Because you're spiraling; and because this thread is dead. Why did you even delete your posts? You're not capable of reasonably or coherently discussing esoterica because you lack the basic faculties required to reconcile information for practical purposes. You're blinded by paranoia and fear to the point that you can only communicate in spastic torrents. Stop worrying about me, find some faith in God, and redeem yourself through the Spirit of Christ.