I can't take wearing a mask or seeing others in stupid ass face diapers. I'm so sick of faceless weirdos. I just got back from the Midwest and people are acting normal there. Come here and the masks are fricken nomalized. It makes me SICK! People masking thier children etc. I want out of CA for my mental health but I cannot move right now due to several circumstances. I am so depressed right now. I feel F*cking trapped with no way out. Cant work without a fricken face diaper but the face diapers give me anxiety and panic attacks after so long. Im sorry if thats dramatic but like I said, I do have legit mental problems.
Anyone else feeling the same and do you have any advice? I'm having trouble even leaving my house because I'm sick of the overwhelming crowds here that get worse every year, even though I was born and raised here, and just the mass stupidity. I hate feeling trapped. I need to live in a small town in the country somewhere. But I'm stuck here for now. Okay sorry about this rant. Just needed to get stuff off my chest.
From here in Tennessee, I have a friend out in SoCal with a similar situation; she can't move due to medical and financial reasons, and is living on a shoestring just to get from day to day. If you can possibly find a way, even if it means sacrificing things in your life, move to that Midwestern place you liked so much.... anything worthwhile in this life -- mental health, happiness, liberty -- is worth sacrificing for.
But if it's impossible to move, fine others who are in your situation and who might agree with your politics and frustration, and hold weekly (or daily?) support group meetings Just talk about what is bothering you today, or commiserate with each other. You would be amazed at how talking it out with like-minded people can let sunlight into your soul.
Good luck!