I can't take wearing a mask or seeing others in stupid ass face diapers. I'm so sick of faceless weirdos. I just got back from the Midwest and people are acting normal there. Come here and the masks are fricken nomalized. It makes me SICK! People masking thier children etc. I want out of CA for my mental health but I cannot move right now due to several circumstances. I am so depressed right now. I feel F*cking trapped with no way out. Cant work without a fricken face diaper but the face diapers give me anxiety and panic attacks after so long. Im sorry if thats dramatic but like I said, I do have legit mental problems.
Anyone else feeling the same and do you have any advice? I'm having trouble even leaving my house because I'm sick of the overwhelming crowds here that get worse every year, even though I was born and raised here, and just the mass stupidity. I hate feeling trapped. I need to live in a small town in the country somewhere. But I'm stuck here for now. Okay sorry about this rant. Just needed to get stuff off my chest.
Remember, the masks feel wrong because they ARE. And that anxiety wearing them causes? It's real. The body, rebels. Having a mask on feels like a danger. (It is) and seeing other people submit to manipulation is frightening. Hell yes it's depressing. But... this is all going to pass. The advice to seek out a mask-free church is good. If you can find one moral support group like that, it could make all the difference. You sure are not alone in how you feel. I hate to give our oppressors a victory -- by succeeding in breaking us. Please trust that something WILL change in Calif especially if Newsom is recalled.