I am not DOOMING.
I believe.
I am just having to go through all this information and news alone. Most days I am strong and believe that GOOD will win. I will admit to being AFRAID.
I am afraid of what is to come. I am of the generation who thought nothing like this could happen to America. Yet here we are. I am surrounded by people who have NO IDEA what is happening around them. They just plod along like the zombies they are.
I have made the effort to share (redpill) people, but some just live in an alternate reality.
I am doing my best at preparing to have energy, food, water, and supplies, but struggle with creating community. Anyone who listens to Lynette Zang, will know what I am talking about.
It is hard to find others in person. Fear of whether that person is FRIEND OR FOE.
Just wanted to know if there is anyone out there that feels like I do.
Thanks.
The question of God. I used to spend time extolling and following his word.
I don't anymore. I let go of that string or maybe I just let it out to its infinity.
The phrase that stayed in my mind from all the years of studying the word was in Revelations. I am sure I will get it wrong but it essentially said "your human mind cannot fathom what has been shown to you". With that phrase I decided to let go. I realized the need to constantly reassure myself was a burden. I cast myself adrift.
Whether God exists is not for my little mind to try and understand. I simply accept the immense majesty of the world around me.
People who need labels would call this Apatheism.
If you were once in God, there would be no fear in you, yet you admit you are afraid. True faith and trust in God will eliminate this fear, because God is not the author of fear, but of peace.
Whether God exists is for you to know, for you are His creation. Should the created thing not know of its maker? Certainly it should! Just as a child knows their parents, you too should know your Father.
God is there my fren. He is aware of your struggle. He’s cheering for you. Keep an eye open and you’ll see His hand in your life. He doesn’t make suffering disappear - but He will help if you ask.
I felt alone for a while, but my immediate family and wife are now redpilled. Her family is conservative but look at me like the conspiracy theorist when I bring stuff up. They are starting to come around though - they can see through the COVID BS (at least some things).