I am not DOOMING.
I believe.
I am just having to go through all this information and news alone. Most days I am strong and believe that GOOD will win. I will admit to being AFRAID.
I am afraid of what is to come. I am of the generation who thought nothing like this could happen to America. Yet here we are. I am surrounded by people who have NO IDEA what is happening around them. They just plod along like the zombies they are.
I have made the effort to share (redpill) people, but some just live in an alternate reality.
I am doing my best at preparing to have energy, food, water, and supplies, but struggle with creating community. Anyone who listens to Lynette Zang, will know what I am talking about.
It is hard to find others in person. Fear of whether that person is FRIEND OR FOE.
Just wanted to know if there is anyone out there that feels like I do.
Thanks.
I'm not much a religious person and do not ascribe to any major faith after studying many. My true faith being more a form of solipsism mixed with psychedelia, I cannot explain the dream world and have no way to ensure I am not just in a part of that already, so the most scientific conclusion I've come up with is when we die, that state becomes permanent, with the science being the pineal gland unleashing DMT into the brain at the last moment.. So there's my crazy out of the way, now here's how I combat my emotions.
My family has many suicides in it, alzheimers and diabetes being the other main culprits. I feel that suicide is one I have the most control over (and I've had many dark times in my life). When I am weak, I will work out, when I realize I am hot, I will cool down, and when I am truly afraid of the dark, I will seek the light in form of positivity.
The serenity prayer is one of my favorite gotos "God/Father grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference."
Also a fan of 1 Corinthians 13:11-12, embedded in my mind from the original Ghost in the Shell when I saw it in my early teens in the 90s: "When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things."