She legit triggered a panic attack just now with the effing mask/vaccine thing. I immediately started breathing heavy, face got red, heart racing/pounding.
While in the exam room that was 45 minutes away...to follow up on my awesome blood work because i lost almost 100 pounds since 4/2020. She had asked me to pull my mask up over my nose...even though she knows i hate it and have been suffering with anxiety.
I said, uh, no....took it off....threw on the ground....said it was disgusting and i dont want bacterial pneumonia. I also can tell that i need dental work....trying to lighten the mood.
I sat down and took deep breaths while my chest & chin were literally shaking as i held back crying, but tears still came down my face.
I very gently let her have it....she never learned about masks in med school...the longer we comply blah blah blah. She is still a zombie. When we were done, she said i still needed a mask to leave the building, said she wasn’t comfortable in the same room with me, then got up to get me a mask. Im all...wow, thats effed up.
Hey doc! Were you TRYING to make a grown woman cry? Oh, and i did have a traumatic weekend...that i had just shared with her. I did not go to that visit for anxiety...that shit is under control. I was there to talk to someone i trusted to keep me on track, see my “friend”, get my results, and talk about how else i can improve.
She is NOT my doctor anymore....after 20 years
That kind of energy will not help me heal...what a shame 🤷🏻♀️
What state or part of the country are you in?
I’m in the Midwest and the other day finally asked my Doc about his take on the vaccine. He had never brought it up and I was dying to know his thoughts.
I told him that I didn’t see any reason to take it because I’m young and healthy, and that it’s untested and I don’t know if it’s safe. I could tell he was being careful with his wording and he was hesitant to say much, what he said was this,
“I would trust your instincts on the vaccine and do what you think is best.” He gave me a look that said don’t take it.
Meanwhile, my mom in MA was practically forced by her doctor to take it. They spent like an hour pressuring her and refused to even give her an antibody test. I’m still furious about that. Her and I were the only ones holding out in the family.
Im in South Florida. She’s not pressuring the vaccine, but she is definitely making me feel like a 2nd class citizen for not taking it.
It was her pushing the mask on me that made me lose it. Oxygen is my most favorite thing. I breathe even while unconscious.