You sound like you need professional help. I'm not being snarky. You sound like you're giving up. If you can possibly afford to speak to a professional counselor, you should.
Most people here are dissenters and we won't be pressured into anything by anyone, so it's upsetting to us when others don't have the same will power.
If you're young enough for your Mom to be that influential then the Delta is of little concern to you, but I think you have a good chance of being fine either way. Don't let this or anything make you hate yourself. If you feel like it was the wrong thing for you to do then learn from it and try to improve yourself.
You seem to have given up on things like girls and self respect. You need to focus on the things you can control. Get into better shape and find a sport or hobby to help build self confidence. Start slow and you'll get there. Don't let who you were dictate who you'll become.
You sound like you need professional help. I'm not being snarky. You sound like you're giving up. If you can possibly afford to speak to a professional counselor, you should.
You need someone to talk to in person if you're this depressed. Dont give up
Most people here are dissenters and we won't be pressured into anything by anyone, so it's upsetting to us when others don't have the same will power.
If you're young enough for your Mom to be that influential then the Delta is of little concern to you, but I think you have a good chance of being fine either way. Don't let this or anything make you hate yourself. If you feel like it was the wrong thing for you to do then learn from it and try to improve yourself.
You seem to have given up on things like girls and self respect. You need to focus on the things you can control. Get into better shape and find a sport or hobby to help build self confidence. Start slow and you'll get there. Don't let who you were dictate who you'll become.