I’ve spent my entire life with severe depression. Up until year and a half ago with a new treatment of ketamine infusions for depression, I was suicidal. I would say just about every day. But I always knew I would never do it because I would never do that to my family. I’m just not that selfish. But I don’t know what’s worse, wanting to kill yourself, or wanting to kill yourself every day and knowing that you can’t. As far as I’m concerned suicide is a luxury.

With all of that in mind, when I finally did except Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior I read many scriptures on assurance. I know my name is written in the book of life, and I’m sealed until the day of redemption.

It has been my faith and knowing and believing in assurance in my salvation, what kept me going all of these years. I don’t have the luxury of picking and choosing which of gods word I think is his or, was edited by a human.

I believe God‘s word is inherent. And like I said you can choose otherwise and that’s OK. I’m not going to debate you on that.

But when you live with the depression I have with my entire life, knowing that God‘s word is inherent, and that I have assurance in my salvation in Christ, it is quite comforting.

There is nothing that you can say that would ever change my mind regarding that matter. I have to believe that God‘s word is inherent. If I don’t, then why do I based my salvation in my assurance on. Nothing! If any of it is considered not gods word, then what part of it is. I can’t live without like that in my mind in my heart.

If I am wrong, then I have nothing to lose. But if I’m right, I have everything to lose. Knowing that ending your life is just around the corner, this is key four life and death!