I wouldn't say that I am really strong, as I had my points in that time period where I really wanted to give up. And there are two kinds of stress and depression that cause panic. There is the inherited kind that other members of your family may have; and then there is the traumatic kind where you suffer from something you can not face. The traumatic kind is not a family trait and is easier to cope with and perhaps even rid yourself entirely; while the inherited stress will be with you for the rest of your life. Naturally I suffered the traumatic loss of 2 children I so desperately wanted and then I had thoughts that perhaps I would not ever have children.

Once I got to the cause and the differences, I knew I wasn't taking any more pills or getting drunk to drown my sorrows. I knew then that I WAS GOING TO BE ME AGAIN and I was dead set on doing it my way. I know in my heart that God was with me and helped me through this time, because if he hadn't, I would have never raised myself up from rock bottom. So I give God the glory for the strength he gave me. Thank you Lord.