You know, I used to be the most positive person I knew, to the point people complained I was unrealistic in my view of the world. But my personal line was crossed already so yes, I feel a lot of doom now these days. It's hard to be positive. I do go to bed trying to remind myself of the silver linings that have come from all this, that so many people are starting to see the world in the same way I have for a long time - in the distrust of vaccines, doctors and teachers/schools. I've already believed this for a long time, being antivax for 13 years, swearing off modern medicine a decade ago, and homeschooling my kids from day 1 - nice to see more people standing in my (typically) lonely corner these days. I guess if we lose the battle here on earth, I'll see you all up in heaven.