Been at it 33 years here. My advice. Live well, as it is said that it is the best revenge. Even with all that we are enduring we have it better than any prior generation, except maybe the boomers after WWII. If you can't live well maybe you have other problems that are not part of this fight. Fix those first, you deserve it, and so do your potential allies in the fight. To live well, ... breath deeply, meditation can help or prayer, calm your mind and find peace, don't eat processed foods, drink clean water, avoid soda, drink alcohol only when your inshape, healthy and have control, reconnect with nature and God, watch a sunset, as often as you can. Make a list of the things you would miss the most if you were gone from this earth and focus on enjoying those for a while. Fix relationships. Calm the rage, find peace, find out why you fight, make sure its for good, if it is continue to do so, if not find out why. Build a network, find more people like you in this balanced state, but only after you have done all the steps before. Be forgiving as you go forward, we all need it. If you do all the steps I think you have won, more than many. Have and enjoy peace and beauty at each step of the battle. Find peace and contentment before, during and after the battle. That is my advice.