Thank you so much , yes just writing this I need to shake my eyes so to speak to keep them from welling up ..I was pretty gutted for awhile, it’s been a couple months so the waves of horrifying sadness aren’t as constant as they were , but still very fresh. It was agonizing , he got ill , long story , and within in weeks , my precious boy who took mountain hikes with me everyday could barely make it around the block. I had the dr come here ..anyway yes I totally feel the same way as far as more tragic! Way more tragic! I loved him so much ..I’ll end there as I honestly can no longer see what I’m writing ) thank you so much