I do too. It's hard to reconcile. I absolutely believe there is no way Trump is unaware of the damage the vax as done. The lives lost young and old. I know many people including my family of hard core Trump patriots who got it BECAUSE he promoted it. No excuse, even if he borrowed every single one creative folks here have provided for him...no excuse will bring one life back. Breaks my heart to say but Trump will not be returning as president even if he gets his likeness carved on the mountain. I do hope that in the end his actions are the straw that broke the cabal's back. I have lost my business as well, and not renewed my licenses. Interesting times ahead. No advice to give. Be well.