I know this is what makes a good Christian. And it's the part I struggle with the most. I pray for guidance in situations like this. We do need to love even our enemies, but boy is that easier said than done. Example: I went to pickup an online order from Red Robin Friday night for dinner. Their service really sucked that evening, I called their pickup number and dialed 4 for the curbside service about 7 times, and was kept on a loop where nobody answered. So I walked in, picked up my cold food that was sitting there, staff was less than friendly, whatever - just take the food home so my family can eat.

Upon walking out to my car, I saw a couple sitting in their car waiting the same way I was, and I knew they were waiting in vain as I was, so I tried to make eye contact. If I didn't have bags of food and my purse in my hands, I might have knocked on the window, but that wasn't possible, so I was hoping my smile might have caught their attention. They rolled down the window, and the male driver started shouting, "YOU GOT A PROBLEM??" Mind you, I have my son (11) and granddaughter (8) with me. I said no, I don't have a problem, and was about to start telling them about the lax service they can expect, when he continued yelling, "WELL THEN WHY THE FUCK YOU LOOKIN AT ME?" and he went on to say "YOU KEEP LOOKIN IN HERE YOU GONNA FIND SUMPIN YOU DON'T LIKE" and was just a general asshole, you get the picture. In that moment, I was so offended by this guy yelling at me like I was doing something wrong, I thought, fuck him, let him wait and figure it out like I did, why should I help him or save him any time? I said, "whatever, man" and got in my car to go home.

I realize what I should have done was to calmly explain to him why I was trying to make eye contact and do what I intended to do in the first place. Maybe he might have realized he was wrong for yelling and assuming I was (well I don't know what he was assuming, I don't get why people get mad at you for looking at them). Maybe we could have parted ways in a friendlier manner. Like I said, I struggle with this kind of thing because my pride gets in the way. I know better, but in practice it's a lot harder to do what we know is right. Thank the heavens for God's grace. I don't know where I'd be without it.