I found out from a friend's post that Kyle is not guilty, said friend couldn't understand how he was not guilty when he killed two people. I tried to explain to him but he ended up blocking me (this was all on FB don't crucify me it's how I stay in contact with a lot of people who are far away). I am pretty upset about this because he has helped me out a lot with guidance when I have been in bad spots mentally.
I think my BPD (borderline personality disorder) is effecting my judgement on this because I truly feel that it's my fault. I feel that I am a bad person for being overly opinionated and I should just stay quiet. I feel like I am losing more and more friends every day as well. This one hit harder than most and just makes me want to change who I am as a person.
Relationships end every day because of people's spoken and written opinions about issues. People feel compelled to change another's opinion, and just won't back off. It takes a lot of maturity to know when to just leave something alone. It's the old "my way or the highway" syndrome, and it doesn't work. You can't tell anyone anything or change anyone's true feelings, they have to change within their own thinking, and it is not generally very quick in happening. I have overstepped myself before, I understand how you feel. Maybe this comment is in fact, over-stepping. But, fren, we all have to learn. And it does hurt. I would apologize for being pushy. That might help save your friendship, if you want it back. Two friends who don't feel the same about something. It's possible. One friend of mine, that I do love, attacked me over politics, like, really spewing bile! I just flat out will not go anywhere near certain issues with her. I think she is stupid.... I mean, really stupid. But I'll never tell her that. Find a Patriot group and go to meetings, you won't have to "watch what you say"!
Almost immediately after it happened I got onto my husband's account to reach out to him, I told him that I would delete what I said even going as far as to never comment on his posts that are political again. He responded with he didn't understand how I could believe Kyle is innocent when he killed three people cold blood and questioned me as a Christian. He said he had to think and pray about it. I even told him that if this is the decision (to block me) I wouldn't contact him every again and respect his decision.
That is 100% accurate to how I think a lot of times and it sucks because it's like even sometimes hours later I regret my decision to cut them off and then want them back in my life. Thankfully over the last year I have been able to curb that behavior with just keeping it to my thoughts as I said feeling I just shouldn't be outspoken or speak anymore and not going out and saying "well I guess that's that then and we will never talk again".
I think for now I am going to leave it with what I said and in a week maybe reach out again to him.