Edit: I appreciate the welcome messages, but I want to emphasize I've been around for a few weeks already. :)

So I found .win a few weeks ago, by sheer accident. I admit I haven't been spending a ton of time here, as many of the posts require context to understand - context that I lack due to living under a rock. (Also apologies for lumping all the .wins together by making this sentiment - I know each is separate.)

Finding this website was the first time I've ever been around people who speak out against the liberals/consumerism/mainstream media/mainstream anything. Before finding this website, I spent all my Internet time on reddit and discord. I found people who associate with the mainstream to often be rude, conniving, ruthless, lacking in empathy, and all that in spite of how they say they're the good guys.

I always felt like the world was getting nastier and ruder, and I felt as though I was never meant for that kind of world. This lead me to do things which were extremely self-destructive, and it's unbelievable that I still found something like this website. It's unbelievable that I still have my critical thinking faculties intact. (You guys wouldn't happen to know of a support community would you? For truth seekers who have been through a lot?) I let the robots get to me because I had never been a part of a community like this before - just surrounded by, well, robots. And sheep.

You know the part of "They Live" where he gets the glasses for the first time and he chuckles and says something like "of course it would be like this"? That's how I feel. It would make sense that the wannabe gulag wardens in our real world were in fact robots. Seeing them as hissing, spitting robots makes it easier to deal with their nastiness.

Finding this website by accident has been my portal to seeing that there are others who've felt like they don't fit in. And they tell us we're the crazy ones.

Do I think the world is ruled by an unspeakable evil? Do I think we're living in the matrix? Well, I think it would certainly explain a lot. Digging into so-called conspiracies, decoding stuff, trying to recover the truth that has long been destroyed, trying to find justice - all of this has been my calling for 24 years, a calling that I never before had the means to answer. It's what I've always had a hunger to do - to be on this quest. I just hope I can recover so I'm able to focus on this quest.