Friend, I’m far from any kind of perfect Christian in practice. I found God and Jesus within me. I don’t pray 1/10th of what I should, I have occasional bad thoughts that I don’t act on and pray for forgiveness on having those thoughts. But I feel the Lord’s love inside me and I talk to him when I can muster up the humility. He’s there, waiting to hear from us. Remember, you don’t need an official prayer, just talk from your heart. Start there and it will come to be easier, you can’t force it. Good Luck and God Bless you.