Okay, this is quite a bit different than what I was expecting and there's quite a bit going on in this 2-year phase of your life. Two losses (separations) will have a significant impact on most people. I completely discount "lyme" and "paranoia" as indicators at this stage.

It would seem the situation with Mr. X may very well be the onset. This, followed by the loss of your mother. Both of these fall into the category of "separation conflicts" of different types. A potential sexual partner (boyfriend/husband) presents differently than separation from your mother. Combined, it can lead to some confusing symptoms and diagnoses.

Let me ask, is your hair loss primarily on one side of your head? This is a common symptom after the loss of a mother - wanting/wishing to be touched/hugged/held by your mother. Hair loss would indicate you're still in what we call the "conflict active" or sympathetic stage and that you have not yet resolved the separation conflict from your mother - understandably so since it was so recent. However, if new hair growth is happening, than perhaps you're in the early vagatonia/healing/hot phase as we speak.

Your October illness certainly sounds common to the "Covid constellation of symptoms". It sounds like a strong and profound "releasing stage". And to be clear, "releasing" of older traumas that you would likely not be consciously aware of.

Seeing "Mr X" for the first time in a while in January could cause one of two things. Either the onset of a resolution to your earlier separation conflict, or possibly, to reignite it if you feel it was only a one-off event and you'd likely never see him again.

Separation conflicts typically result in skin, hair or periosteum (bone covering) related symptoms - rashes, pox, bumps, skin growths, hair loss, etc. I do feel you're very fortunate in that you are not having more severe potential symptoms of separation conflicts. I consider you fortunate in this regard, as your symptoms are mild in comparison.

There's a very small possibility that you may be caught in what we call a "Post Sensory Cortex Constellation", due to having 2 separation conflicts. However, the most tell-tale sign of this would be short-term memory loss, which you haven't mentioned.

I'm going to share this modality with you now after having done my best to try and narrow down the potential causes for the symptoms you share. I must stress a few things with you however, should your journey through it be graceful and inquisitive. Something not all that I've shared this with have experienced, due to their many misunderstandings. As such, I share a few pointers:

1. We all perceive the world subjectively. This is the most important thing to understand. As an example, your response to the loss of your mother can be very different from say one of your siblings, or anybody else for that matter. I tell you this so you understand that while the death of someone's mother is a very impactful life event, people handle it differently. All this to say, everybody that loses their mothers will not experience a "Separation conflict" dis-ease and symptoms. It always depends on individual perception and is entirely subjective in nature. This is a substantial break from the mainstream "one bug, one drug" model of dis-ease, which is quite "convenient", but entirely false.

2. You also need to be careful as many dis-eases have very different causes, depending on the things I asked you in my last comment. First is handedness. Based on your responses, in all likelihood you behave as a "Righty". Second, pre/post menopausal status. A pre-female falls into the "female" category. A "post-female" falls into the "male" category most of the time. And likewise, hormonal status is important to understand as well. A man low in testosterone or a woman low in estrogen presents as the OPPOSITE gender in this modality.

3. Keep close in mind, as it appears you are, the notion of hypochondria and psychosomatic catalysts. Fear/Worry/Concern/Shame/Guilt etc. are VERY POWERFUL catalysts of dis-ease.

4. I would encourage you to think back to an ailment you've had long in the past, and begin by investigating one or more of these as they are not so close and personal to you now. Study these and see if the conflict triggers/catalysts match up to your experience. This is what I did for myself, and several others, for a few months before finally realizing that this modality was undoubtedly correct.

5. I would also encourage you to carefully and slowly read and learn about GNM, rather than jumping the gun and just looking up each individual dis-ease you're curious about. This is the best website to learn GNM: https://learninggnm.com/

This healing modality is called "German New Medicine" (GNM for short). It was discovered by an uber-genius German doctor named Ryke Geerd Hamer. He was the youngest person to ever graduate from medical school in Germany (20 yo). In fact, he was so young that he felt unable to relate to adults as a clinician and instead got a masters in theology before beginning his medical practice. Shortly thereafter, his 21 year old son was shot in the face by the crown prince of Italy on a yacht (crazy story!). After his son passed due to his injuries, he was diagnosed with testicular cancer. He tied the two events together and began interviewing other patients with testicular cancer. He soon learned that all these men had had similar losses and experiences to his. This set him off on his unbelievable discoveries.

Dr. Hamer compiled over 10,000 case studies claiming 100% accuracy. He presented these to the German health ministry for review. Shortly thereafter, they locked up his findings and told him he would need to recant all his findings and return to his normal allopathic oncology practice, and to never mention his findings again to anybody else. He refused. His medical license was summarily removed. Later, he was kicked out of Germany. He was imprisoned in France, and spent the rest of his time in fear for his life. If you go to Wikipedia, you'll see he's labeled as a "Quack". But of course!!

You being on this board and beginning to see the many deceptions in this world are obviously ready to dismiss the "mainstream" opinion of his work and instead decide for yourself. As I mentioned earlier, I've diagnosed over 200 people now, and I have yet to discover an error.

Lastly, since you're strongly Christian, I will encourage you to heighten your practice in forgiveness. And to be clear, you can forgive anybody and everybody in your mind/heart alone. The practice does not need to be person-to-person, face-to-face. All that matters is your genuine sincerity in doing so. Nothing is more powerful.

And adding to that, you're surely aware of the "Armor of God". You may be new to "Q", but Q mentioned in several times back in the day. There is a wide variety of opinions and interpretations as to what "The Armor of God" is or means. I'll share mine, having been a deep student of all world religions and spiritual modalities for the past 14 years. What I believe "The Armor of God" is, is quite simply the eradication of FEAR coupled with the withdrawal of one's JUDGMENT from the world. And by "FEAR", I include worry, concern, shame, guilt, second-guessing, doubt, etc. I realize this doesn't sound like an easy task. But you can ask for support/guidance from God/Jesus/Holy-Spirit and it will be granted, as grace. You won't so much "do it", as it will kind of just "happen" with repeated attention and prayer for assistance.

And as to "JUDGMENT", I do not mean "discernment". Judgment means to add a CHARGE of NEGATIVE or POSITIVE to people, places, things, etc. It is the CHARGE that carries the ENERGY and POWER. Your likes and dislikes, preferences etc. have nothing to do with "JUDGMENT". So to be clear, I distinguish "Judgment" from "Discernment" from "Likes/Preferences".

And as a last note on JUDGMENT, nothing is more severe and debilitating than SELF-JUDGMENT. As with your forgiveness practice, you can equally forgive yourself for perceived errors and mistakes in your past. You must include your SELF! God will then take care of the rest. Trust in God.

I share this fear/judgment bit (Armor of God) as I have read over 3000 books on the subject of spirituality/religion. You name it, I probably read it. This was a 15-year journey of mine into "truth seeking". And boy did I SEEK the heck out of it. Ultimately my goal was clarify, harmonize and simplify what I learned. I do believe my continued seeking ultimately led me to GNM as well. It seems now, when I get curious about any topic, I eventually stumble into the truth, or the closest thing to it that can be approximated with our limited minds.

My journey led me to simplify down to these two items - fear and judgment. These are the two energies/vibrations that hold us in bondage. The gradual and graceful release of each is more profound than you can imagine. The more people/events you release from judgment, the better you feel. I can't state it any simpler than this. It doesn't "happen all at once", and frankly, you aren't the "doer" of the magic either. What you gracefully become is the "neutral observer", or as stated in the bible, you become a "Witness for God". To "witness" is to observe but not to CHARGE a situation with judgment. It is the energetic CHARGE of JUDGMENT that leads to our deepest pain and suffering.

So go easy on yourself as you study GNM. You haven't made any mistakes. Nothing is your fault. Take solace in knowing you're in control and that you're not a helpless "victim" and that you're not under "attack" by germs/bacteria. Relax and breathe into this every time you lose sight of it, but then regain awareness. And continue to pray for the release of fear (and all its red-headed step-children) and judgment. It will come if you're earnest and sincere. And the world will begin to manifest before you in ways you couldn't previously imagine!

Good luck, and feel free to reach out and ask me any questions should you have any.

Godspeed!