For me it comes and goes... an overwhelming sense of hopelessness seems to creep up on me, and I have to fight through it.
Yes, Jesus is my source of hope. But I am human. I have a need to stay informed, and yet it wrecks me often, due to the evil I discover.
Even knowing that Jesus has won, that we have won, that we are winnning... these are such "far away" concepts in the face of the ugliness that we see unveiled every day.
So much energy goes into keeping a grasp on all that is happening, so as to be able to red-pill others and to protect my family. That's how I am wired. Can't help it.
So I find my balance this way: I try to limit my time here (rather than just an all day constant presence), and I pray for wisdom and strength. I also choose to live as an example of goodness (and I am not perfect!). These things keep me sane.
I wrote this because I assume many struggle with this balance... and I just wanted to encourage everyone to hang in there, and take a moment to acknowledge the challenge and to strategize about how best to maintain the balance for yourself.
If we are not mentally, emotionally, and spiritually strong when the shit really blows up, then we will not be the shepherds I believe God is calling us to be.
I completely understand what you mean. I’ve been struggling myself with a depression cycle this past week or so. It comes and goes for me as well. I constantly find myself asking forgiveness from God for all the worry and anxiety I feel because I know I’m supposed to have faith that He will look after us. It’s also hard not to let anger and hatred creep in. I have to constantly remind myself that the people who are still asleep aren’t doing that maliciously, they don’t understand and they think they’re doing the right thing - it’s not their fault because the indoctrination is so intense and so effective.
I guess what i’m trying to say is that you’re not alone at all and if you ever need someone to talk to you have a lot of us here. This is a very trying time. Those of us that are awake have built up strength against all this evil, just imagine what this time must be like for those that don’t yet understand. Hang in there and do your best to find joy in anything you can, no matter how small it may seem.
Well said, Fren. Thank you. We are far ahead in the awakening compared to so many... I think God is calling us to play a special role in helping people.