For me it comes and goes... an overwhelming sense of hopelessness seems to creep up on me, and I have to fight through it.
Yes, Jesus is my source of hope. But I am human. I have a need to stay informed, and yet it wrecks me often, due to the evil I discover.
Even knowing that Jesus has won, that we have won, that we are winnning... these are such "far away" concepts in the face of the ugliness that we see unveiled every day.
So much energy goes into keeping a grasp on all that is happening, so as to be able to red-pill others and to protect my family. That's how I am wired. Can't help it.
So I find my balance this way: I try to limit my time here (rather than just an all day constant presence), and I pray for wisdom and strength. I also choose to live as an example of goodness (and I am not perfect!). These things keep me sane.
I wrote this because I assume many struggle with this balance... and I just wanted to encourage everyone to hang in there, and take a moment to acknowledge the challenge and to strategize about how best to maintain the balance for yourself.
If we are not mentally, emotionally, and spiritually strong when the shit really blows up, then we will not be the shepherds I believe God is calling us to be.
I struggle with this so much. Sometimes I feel so blessed to be awake, and other times it feels like a curse. It makes it SO difficult to relate to like 95% of people I see on a daily basis. Feel like an outcast. Feel like conversations have to be shallow or else I’m going to say something that will make them think I’m nuts. None of them get any of it. I get so tired. I feel compelled to let people know and warn them, but it rarely gets taken seriously. Tired of it. I also have a compulsion to check this board and others on a daily basis. I can’t skip a day or I feel like I’m gonna miss something important. I need to start smoking weed or something lol
Lol... I don't know about the weed... that's up to you. But, what you wrote is a good description of how so many of us feel. This Board is a place to find support. Thanks for posting, and I hope you see the wisdom in the posts by others. Hang in there.
Yes, I read all the other anons’ suggestions and am going to put them to use. Thanks for making the post, it’s very helpful
You are most welcome! Take care.