It's going to take time bud. You have been numbing your feelings because you couldn't deal with them, now you have to relearn that. The anxiety is going to be bad for a while.

But you only need to get through one day. Because tomorrow doesn't matter only today does. Ask yourself if you can handle this for one day? And do the same tomorrow. Work on learning coping skills, whatever works for you. Meditation, the bible, excersize, arresting pedophile politicians. Whatever you like. And you will get to a good place.