I’ve been in the ring since 1997 or so. The Cabal was just coming out of the shadows back then, and I was more curious than anything about what they were up to. Being a Patriot today involves actual trauma.
I think what’s doing it for me this week is the normalization of pedophilia and the Supreme Court pick. Society has reached a level of insanity that I can no longer confront everyday. And I don’t think it’s healthy to every single day watch everyone in my life participating in their own demise, marching off to the big trench that’s been dug for them. People that I love....
I had a great f*cking childhood. One of the last generations to have one. Truly one of the apple pie and lawn hose kids.
I’m just going to take a mental health break. I don’t know who I am anymore other than ANTI-DEEP STATE. I feel like I have no other identity.
Everyday to some extent. Sounds like you're describing me, except I wasn't a fan of apple pie as a kid hah.
Hold onto your memories of childhood and who you were before as I'm almost certain that's the largest part of your (or anybody's) true Identity. <something about only 'children at heart' entering the kingdom of Heaven>. Being an adult in this world sadly requires we add defensive layers around our cores (shields/egos/false fronts) and too many lose perspective, thinking themselves only as their outer layers.
You can practice taking them on and off, but they need to be identified first (how can someone take their jacket off if they think it's their skin?). I try to dedicate one day a week to completely shut out the external world . It's kind of like I live in the eye of a storm, not so much personally impacted by these tribulations so far, but hard to be blind to what's going on around me and not empathically suffer. One day a week pretending my peace is all there is seems to hold the balance atm.
Hopefully there's something beneficial in the above, stream of consciousness ftw.