I am a single father of two sons who live with me. I love them and try to provide the best for them in life.
We are Christian and all that and attend church when we can; altho they go with their mom on weekends.
Lately i have become incredibly depressed by everything going on. I was mostly unaffected by Covid, I have prepped a large stash of stuff just in case, and for the most part my life isnt too objectively bad.
Dating has been hard and i am beginning to despair of ever finding a partner in this area and with the morass of online dating sites being the suckholes that they are.
Ironically being depressed and trying to date isnt the best combo so im just spiraling down on the regular.
I have prayed to God to send me someone who he intends for me, but thus far no luck.
I feel like theres nothing left for me in life. Nothing i want or need. I am hanging in there for my sons and my parents but you can only live for someone else for so long, and i feel my time is growing short.
Any advice to cheer me up? At 43 i have too far left to walk to do it alone but feel as though ive walked too far already to make finding someone a possibility.
And with all the vaxxing im not keen on meeting someone whos going to randomly sudden death on me, so im there at the viewing saying "im just thankful for the 6 great months we had together."
Ive lived and worked with pain and i just dont want any more, and God knows what ive been through...
You have gotten some incredibly great advice in these comments! Wow. I'm so proud of rhe people we have here. Not much I want to add except: that real gratitude, heaps of it, can change your whole life. And, what are you interested in besides your kids? Go do some things that are about your interests. Because that is how to meet women who already share your interests. Very important!
I was a first child who moved around a lot so my interests are pretty individual. Not too many women grinding flour,working on small engines, etc. I lead a pretty solitary life so covid didn't bug me since I've been social distancing before it was cool. But I also lack the type of interests where people congregate...I don't mind being alone, but weekends are hard because my kids are gone and I do miss adult conversation about all kinds of topics. I'm too well read for most of my friends, not narrow enough view points
Need a pen pal?
Maybe not a bad idea!
It could help pass the time. I'm bored to tears too. Strange that I could be bored under the current circumstances, but I am. I'm tired of always having to teach people. It's constant. I couldn't even begin to become emotional with 99.9% of the men I know because they are so far behind, they'd probably never catch up and its all just boring at this point. Repetitive and boring. I feel like an alien in this dumb world full of dumb emotionally and intellectually challenged NPCs. Now, to cheer up...another specialty, I believe happiness is a choice, so I choose to be happy, daily, and I try to make the best of it all smile a little.
Hit me up private. We can be pen pals for real. I'd welcome the conversation.