I am a single father of two sons who live with me. I love them and try to provide the best for them in life.
We are Christian and all that and attend church when we can; altho they go with their mom on weekends.
Lately i have become incredibly depressed by everything going on. I was mostly unaffected by Covid, I have prepped a large stash of stuff just in case, and for the most part my life isnt too objectively bad.
Dating has been hard and i am beginning to despair of ever finding a partner in this area and with the morass of online dating sites being the suckholes that they are.
Ironically being depressed and trying to date isnt the best combo so im just spiraling down on the regular.
I have prayed to God to send me someone who he intends for me, but thus far no luck.
I feel like theres nothing left for me in life. Nothing i want or need. I am hanging in there for my sons and my parents but you can only live for someone else for so long, and i feel my time is growing short.
Any advice to cheer me up? At 43 i have too far left to walk to do it alone but feel as though ive walked too far already to make finding someone a possibility.
And with all the vaxxing im not keen on meeting someone whos going to randomly sudden death on me, so im there at the viewing saying "im just thankful for the 6 great months we had together."
Ive lived and worked with pain and i just dont want any more, and God knows what ive been through...
Sorry to hear that! Don't be depressed. The last 2 years have hit us all. That is what they want. These evil forces want to keep us in constant fear and in low vibration. Don't let them be successful.
Don't look at what you don't have, but instead appreciate what you have. You have two sons and parents who are still alive. This is the most precious in the world, but we tend to regard that as normal. It isn't.
Stand up every morning and tell yourself how lucky and blessed you are with your family. Do some workout, get a fresh haircut and be nice to yourself. It may not immediately work, but be assured: when you love yourself, you will be loved. God bless you!
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I try to show gratitude but it's an uphill struggle with the demons inside. Thanks for the tips I will keep at it
Part of it is my side gig; after my last true crime book was finished right before covid I went into a tailspin. I can stomach a lot but the unsolved rapes and murders got to me at last.