I am a single father of two sons who live with me. I love them and try to provide the best for them in life.

We are Christian and all that and attend church when we can; altho they go with their mom on weekends.

Lately i have become incredibly depressed by everything going on. I was mostly unaffected by Covid, I have prepped a large stash of stuff just in case, and for the most part my life isnt too objectively bad.

Dating has been hard and i am beginning to despair of ever finding a partner in this area and with the morass of online dating sites being the suckholes that they are.

Ironically being depressed and trying to date isnt the best combo so im just spiraling down on the regular.

I have prayed to God to send me someone who he intends for me, but thus far no luck.

I feel like theres nothing left for me in life. Nothing i want or need. I am hanging in there for my sons and my parents but you can only live for someone else for so long, and i feel my time is growing short.

Any advice to cheer me up? At 43 i have too far left to walk to do it alone but feel as though ive walked too far already to make finding someone a possibility.

And with all the vaxxing im not keen on meeting someone whos going to randomly sudden death on me, so im there at the viewing saying "im just thankful for the 6 great months we had together."

Ive lived and worked with pain and i just dont want any more, and God knows what ive been through...