I feel somewhat the same, having been at Disneyland with my parents at age 3 (I'm a lot older than you), spending the night with a lot of other California senior classes on graduation night, and visiting regularly over the years. But knowing what I know now has ruined it - it will never be the same for me. Just the thought of what is happening to children there turns my stomach. I long to see every pervert who has contributed to that torture for children punished without mercy.