From https://www.henrymakow.com/2014/01/Jews-dominate-sweep-of-pedophiles%20.html
[Canadian] police announced Nov. 14, [2013] the arrest of almost 350 people and the rescue of over 400 children.
The international network of child porn producers and distributors was directed by the International Jewish mob. The key protagonists in this particular case are Markus Roth of Germany and Brian Way of Canada...
[Roth] carried out such activities with former KGB Soviet Ukrainian Jewish spy Igor Rusanov, who was arrested in 2011. Rusanov is said to have had sex with many of the boys. Rusanov is suspected of having links to the Russian-Israeli Mafia. Their company (AZOV FILMS) client list resulted in many arrests.
EDIT: Please be aware that I have nothing against Jewish people. The Lord Jesus Christ is Jewish and will reign as King of Israel. However, it does not make sense to see the Jewish deep state commit crimes against children and not be able to talk about it.
I was full atheist willfully for a long time because all the priests growing up couldnt answer my questions (who made god if nothing existed before god? You need faith for that)and I couldn't find an inner faith to believe. Also I just didn't want to be scared by Satan anymore either. That's a long story caused by my mom reading us revelations to scare us when she was high and telling us she had visions of Mary hovering over her. It wasn't a great childhood. Lol
Anyway, I had believed in evil and god once upon a time and in 2015 as the veil of deception was ripped from me I started to just feel it all around and with that I could no longer deny God. If one exists so does the other even if man or the Bible cannot properly explain existence to me. It was a long road starting when obama was elected my redpills began.I choose to believe Jesus will save us from this evil and our sins because without that there really is no hope. I don't know if I'm saved or not and I admit I haven't read the Bible since childhood though I remember alot of the parables and Bible stories told to me as a child. I'm not too worried. I am sure God knows my heart and I've asked for forgiveness there for denying him these last 20 years.
Thank you for the suggestion in reading. Whenever I open my Bible I start with old testament and get turned off. I keep telling myself to start in the new testament but I have an aversion to skipping the beginning of any book. I'm a bit of a nerd that way. I've always only owned kjv and a patriot version.
It's good to be afraid of Satan, but it's better to be afraid of God. After all, God is the one who throws people into Hell. Anything Satan does he does with God's permission.
It's good that you want to ask for forgiveness and are acknowledging God's existence and want to get right with him, but we can't just ask for forgiveness and have it be granted - we have to follow the way he laid out through His Son's blood.
Imagine if Hillary Clinton got arrested and sentenced to death and asked the judge for forgiveness. If the judge granted it to her he'd be a corrupt judge. However, if someone innocent who isn't on death row was willing to serve her punishment, justice would be served. We have imperfect justice being evil humans, so how much more does a perfect God need to maintain His justice.
The Bible says there is not one person who does good, not even one. None are righteous. The only way we can possibly pass any sort of judgment is by being given God's very own righteousness. Basically God treated Jesus on the cross as if he committed every sin you or I ever committed. We can look at Jesus on the cross to see what God really thinks of us. But if we believe Jesus is who God said he and that he died for us and God rose him from the dead 3 days later, God will basically let us "trade" with Jesus - He was judged as if he lived our lives, and we get to be judged as if we lived his perfect life.
If you're not 100% sure you're saved you need to learn to trust not in yourself or any prayer or baptism or stopping sinning or going to church or anything like that, but just trust that Jesus's work on the cross is enough to pay for your sins.
I've read the Bible a few times, the 2nd time being "cover to cover". Really, it's OK to view the Bible as a collection of 66 books that can be read individually. Sure, they do all fit together very neatly and I think even the current order of the books it the KJV is inspired, but to start off I'd say just reading individual books as a whole is the best way. Just make sure you're reading in context and read the start of books to understand who they're written to(i.e. Paul writes to churches primarily, the book of James is written to "the 12 tribes scattered abroad" - i.e. Jews.). I got saved when I opened my heart to the Bible being true, opened to Romans 3 and 1 minute later understood I was a sinner and got saved. Don't fret over it, just get into it!
Yes I believe in Jesus and why he dies for us but Isn't it better to go right to the source for prayer? I mean I've always addressed my prayers to God and not Jesus was that somehow wrong?
No it's OK either way. Remember when Jesus died how the veil in the temple was torn down the middle? It used to be that only a high priest could enter in once a year with blood sacrifice to go behind the veil. Once Jesus died, it tore from top to bottom, meaning now anyone can walk in to the Father.
God doesn't hear the prayers of the wicked, but Jesus is our propitiation that allows us to commune with the Father. If you read John chapter 3, you'll notice that John 3:16 is a past tense action, "God so loved the world..." but at the end of that same chapter we get his present tense attitude towards the sinner "His wrath abideth". Basically, if you're saved you can pray to the Father, but if you're not you can't until you get right with his son.
How do you know you've gotten right with Jesus?