I write this today, because I know I'm not alone in this and others might be feeling the same way as me.
We are going through hard times now. I believe when Q said "The end is not for all of us" I think I know what he was referring. I have a 5 months old girl named Cataleya and we call her Cat or Cathy. I want her to do well, but she wouldn't do well without both of her parents, because I know my husband would not do well alone and will never forgive me if I let my intrusive thoughts win.
I have 3 life insurances that would help my husband and baby girl to do well in these hard times, however, I'm also looking for reasons to keep fighting even if I have to be hungry.
Although, I'm a mental health professional, I'm not doing well myself. I have intrusive thought every day and I fighting them as much as possible. If you are reading this, you are not the only one who feels this way, I can make up excuses and say "ooh, I feel like this because PPSD (Post-partum Stress Disorder), but others genuinely are feeling lost, dejected, and hopeless.
I share this today, because I want to keep fighting for our future generations and our country together and check of those who says "I'm fine".
Friend, it IS hard. I dont need much confidence in the plan, as we know it here, bc I have complete faith in God who I know is with us. The grief we feel at horrors and injustices of atrocities is known by God. Vengeance is His and they will see their day come, truly nothing can stop that.
Thank you for sharing this, yes, Im sure many of us have these thoughts of despair when the wicked seem to prosper! But please do not ever give up on the TRUTH. The truth is that God is real, Jesus is LORD, and believing and knowing this is THE security of peace that no one can steal. There is nothing more important, literally, than this. Your family needs you, God gave them to you, and you to them. Enjoy every moment with them.
The weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds. We need to always take those thoughts and ideas captive that exalt themselves above Christ. The pain we feel at the horrors of today is a good thing, not pleasant, it HURTS. But Id far rather be grieved than be one of them who do the atrocities, or those who ignore them or stay in denial for political reasons. I know God will not let the wicked go unpunished. I am cynical and somewhat skeptical about Q plans/DT/any mans plan--but that does NOT change that I know, with no doubt, the wicked WILL be brought to justice, here or eternity or both.
The Word of God is my favorite place to be. Nothing gives perspective and strengthens faith.
And to help on very frustrating days--watch an eagle cam or any nature cam. Trust me--guaranteed you watch these, please come back tell me how happy and adorable they are. Its a true vacation from our problems. As a mental health professional you prob appreciate the movie what about bob? so you know what I mean by a vacay from probs.
Watch these for a nice break spirit--the spoiled princes eagle that is favorite of many https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B4-L2nfGcuE or the adventures of the 3 bears as I calll them--3 eaglet siblings and their adorable antics https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RmmAzrAkKqI or the too adorable for words 4 red tailed hawk siblings and their new adventures as they begin exploring https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TvuSCLsxUFo