First off let me apologize for any negative you get. I to on first read got a little upset but after a couple reads of it I could feel you anger wasnt directed at me rather more just frustration that the evil is there. I completely understand part of me really wanted to speak up, until I realized that the loudest response I could give is love because evil can not stand love. It feeds of negative. I'm glad to hear your starting to give some thought about God. I promise if u keep seeking with an honest heart that he will reveal himself to u in a mighty way. A life changing way. I am here if u ever wanna talk about anything God. I dont "KNOW" very much but I will always share my thoughts and who knows maybe even grow together. God bless you fren. Much love