Hi sister :) um, to be completely honest I am still trying to figure it out. I went most of my life like this and have been getting better little by little in Christ. However, it’s so easy to slip back into those dark mindsets which place me back into unhealthy behavior (bad eating, laziness, wanting to give up, ect.). It feels like simple tasks are too hard to accomplish. I notice what does lift my spirits are Bible reading, singing/worship, gardening, working with the children ministry at my church, sometimes writing. But in all honesty, even those are temporary and when I get too bad I don’t want to do them. I talk with Jesus about it all the time and feel like I let Him down a lot. It often feels like I have no energy but I push myself which leads to the anxiety and depression. Everything just feels like too much.