Yep if u miss it, it's never to late to catch up. Thanks for being an example for others. I really loved your thankful for one. I second that. Thank you Jesus. I shouldnt be here, I've made horrible choices in past yet here I am and Christ is my rock. Man what a rock indeed.

I feel like I could do more. And since I feel like this and dont manage to do the more I know I can, it makes me feel lazy or like I'm not giving it all I can. It's also frustrating feeling like I am forcing myself to do things sometimes and this sometimes hurts because I truly love doing this stuff. It's like my heart and soul is drawn to it yet my mind is like just wait till tomorrow, or its gonna be pointless to do, stuff like this. I just want the world to feel and see what I see. I see endless potential with this group.

This weed struggle is a common one. I have the same struggle. I have had some postive experiences on weed. However part of me feels wrong that the postive is coming from a source that brings you out of your natural Godly state. Like isnt God and that postive there regardless of the weed. Does he ever leave our side. That slave thought is something u should really reflect on. Like I said I have been through exact same thing so non of my words are meant to put u down. Just sharing my thoughts. Keep giving it all to God my fren. Thanks for sharing your heart. God bless. God wins.